This has been *such* a journey. My word.
Thought we were losing Baby around 8 weeks, then had hopes we were keeping Baby. A blood test at 9ish weeks showed my numbers dropping and once again we thought we were losing Baby. Several weeks went by and I never started the miscarriage process and was still getting positive pregnancy tests.
Week 14 found us getting an ultrasound and we got to see a sweet baby with a strong heartbeat, lots of movement and even the hiccups!
At 23 weeks I began experiencing some concern things that put me on light bed rest. I was still able to work around the house some, but had to be very, very cautious. And I was still able to attend church.
At the beginning of January, around 28 weeks, I pulled a muscle really bad in my back and because of that I was feeling more concerning things. My midwife checked me and we learned that my cervix was already almost as forward as it could go. Say Wha??????? That landed me on strict bedrest.
And now we're closing in on 37 weeks. Considered to be full term and safe dates for a home birth, which is our desire and goal.
I'm still in shock that we've made it this far. Part of me still doesn't think we'll get to keep or hold his Baby. But I'm having more and more hope with each passing day.
I've had days of fighting depression, where I questioned what GOD might be doing and why He is doing this. I've had amazing days of being able to just rest in Christ and His perfect plan. Its been a long, trying journey, but GOD has shown Himself good throughout it all.
My kids have stepped up in so many ways! My oldest is basically running our home. #2 is her assistant. #3 is my protector and I could go on and on. They have each contributed to keeping the house running and everyone cared for. And serving and caring for Baby and Mama.
My husband has gone out of his way to make sure I'm taken care of with good foods, reminding the kids to check on me throughout the day to see if I need anything, and finding ways to just make life easier and more pleasant from bed. No clue what I did to deserve all this love, but boy am I thankful!! We always do things as a team and this has been no exception.
No matter what trial you personally might be going through, know that Christ hasn't left you. Know His plan is perfect. Find ways to grow in your faith, to encourage yourself, to remain close to Him, even when you don't feel like it. Continue to work on your relationship with your husband and kids. Look for ways to serve others from wherever you are. Don't grow weary. 💕
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